Gravity

“Gravity” was originally written and sung by Sara Bareilles. However, I came to know this song from Jessica Jung’s cover of it in a short biography she filmed with Grazia.

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Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I’ll still feel you here ‘til the moment I’m gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your reign.

Set me free, leave me be. I don’t want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I’m supposed to be.
But you’re on to me and all over me.

You loved me ‘caused I’m fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.

Set me free, leave me be. I don’t want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I’m supposed to be.
But you’re on to me and all over me.

I live here on my knees, as I try to make you see that you’re everything I need here on the ground.
But you’re neither friend nor foe though I can’t seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you’re keeping me down.
You’re keeping me down.
You’re on to me, on to me, and all over…
Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.

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[VIETNAMESE TRANSLATION – by me]

Điều gì đó luôn khiến em nhớ về anh
Mà không mất quá nhiều thời gian
Mặc dù em có nói hoặc làm gì đi chăng nữa
Em vẫn cảm thấy được anh tồn tại nơi đây cho đến khi em ra đi

Anh nâng niu em dù không chạm vào em
Anh giữ được em dù không trói buộc em
Em không muốn gì hơn ngoài đắm chìm trong tình yêu của anh mà không bị anh chế ngự

Cho em tự do. Hãy để mặc em.
Em không muốn ngã vào lực kéo của anh một khắc nào nữa.
Em ngẩn cao đầu đứng tại đây, như cách mà em phải làm.
Nhưng anh vẫn tồn tại trong em

Anh từng yêu em vì mỏng manh.
Khi em cho rằng mình thật mạnh mẽ.
Nhưng khi anh chạm nhẹ vào em, sự mạnh mẽ mỏng manh đó của em lại tan biến mất.

Cho em tự do. Hãy để mặc em.
Em không muốn ngã vào lực kéo của anh một khắc nào nữa.
Em ngẩn cao đầu đứng tại đây, như cách mà em phải làm.
Nhưng anh vẫn tồn tại trong em.

Em hạ mình cố gắng để anh thấy rằng anh là tất cả những gì em cần trên mặc đất này.
Tuy anh không phải là thù cũng chẳng phải là bạn, nhưng em như rằng không thể buông tay anh.
Một điều duy nhất em còn có thể hiểu đó là anh vẫn cầm giữ em.
Anh vẫn khống chế em.
Anh vẫn tồn tại trong em…
Điều gì đó luôn khiến em nhớ về anh
Mà không mất quá nhiều thời gian.

 

 

Guo Jingming: I’m the Chinese dream of these Times

Guo Jingming: I’m the Chinese dream of these Times.

wow, I know Guo is a quite popular author in writing fictional novels but I’ve never known that he can be so influential… Either that or the translator person is doing an extremely well of a job.

After reading it kind of making me feel like I should get up and do something for myself, for the community, for the society. Haha. I really should be doing something useful and stop being such a scaredy-cat. I need to be more self-confident and optimistic.

SFO 777 plane crash

I heard about the San Francisco plane crash today on the new, suddenly feels like life is just too short. You don’t know what tomorrow is going to bring. The two chinese girls who died on the plane, god bless them <3. They are excellent students in their school and have bright future awaits them. But just in one day, everything is gone.

So… live your life to the fullest today
because you don't know what tomorrow going to bring

Crap load family

Eh…. I guess there’s one quote that fits my damn life. It actually was said by Yang Mi: “Those who hates you will always hate you whether you do right or wrong.” Haha. The person that probably hate me the most is my mom. To do or not to do, do right or do wrong, her only feedback for me is shit and craps. Lately, I’ve been through a lot. And also slowly getting numb and loses my feeling to this load of shit family… Suddenly feels like I wish I was adopted. I might be; taking in consideration how much they all hate me. Haha. 过了去了 (the past is past). “The day will continue to go on, you’ll still have to face tomorrow.” Just realized how much I understand Yang Mi now.

The Cold Days

Well. School ended, summer started. But it is no where near fun and warm in my family. Even if it’s 80 degrees outside right now, this house will still be dead cold as the morgue. Even the air is cold. It is not quiet, as the matter of fact, it’s very noisy. Noisy not in term of laughter, chatter, holiday-listic fun noise. But the noise as in the yelling and screaming of words of hatred on top of ours lungs until everyone is too tired to say anything anymore. And then the silence takes over. Apparently we have figured out why waste our energy on each other if we really hate that person so much. For me, I have less and less words to say to them, everything now I will just keep it to myself. I’ve thought and thought a lot last night. The happy memory this family has given me is being replaced by the bitter memory they are creating. Honestly, I have tried and can’t remember anything when I was 5. It’s probably was the happiest time of my life, but sadly I’ve forgot it. I wouldn’t be surprise if one day they turn into my enemy.

……….

But guess what, I think they have made peace with each other. They all hated me. That’s fine. This family is cold from the start anyway, I’ve used to living in the cold days.

New Faces

Alright. Haven’t been on here for a while… that means life is going smooth for me :)) less time complaning on blogs (although I should post more fun stuff on here). Haha. Anyway. I’ve been more outgoing lately. And something just hit me a few hours ago… I actually like to talk to new people and get to know them xD this is a HUGE step in breaking my own wall that I have been trying to take down for years now.

…… hope I didn’t just jinx-ed it >.<

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Emptiness

Suddenly a rush of a feeling brushes pass me. The feeling of no feelings. The emptiness is uncomfortable, yet why does it lingers for so long. Tried to look at old photos to find some feeling… nothing. I feel so empty as if never existed.

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